Wow, I've been dead on here for the longest time. I'm so sorry. I now have over 4,000 messages to weed through. Fuck.
I really don't know why I left. I knew it wasn't for good, but still. One of the major changes from then to now is that my grandmother passed away on December 12th. I won't lie, I didn't cry when I found out... I had mixed feelings, and felt entirely guilty for that. And I feel bad about saying this, but my mother and I have actual freedom now... Don't get me wrong, I did love her and miss her from time to time, but she hurt us with her words and actions, and there's a part of me that just can't forgive her for that.
Shaun and I are... wonderful. Better than ever. On December 23rd, it seemed as though absolutely everything changed for us. I can't say that it was exactly for the better, but, to me, we seem much closer. And I see him a lot more than I ever did. And I feel super emotional and angsty whenever I have to leave. He's the first person that I said that I was in love with them, and it felt great to say that. Yes, we have changed and a bunch of people know certain things here and there, but we do not want to leave one another. Ever. College is gonna fucking suck next year.
GOT A TUMBLR. It's entirely too addicting, and I love it. You should all follow me, whoever reads this, then let me know that you're from here (: redroseofmusic.tumblr.com/
I have district chorus tomorrow. I should get some sleep. ... Ehhh.